Quarterly Life Crisis

How ironic that after my maiden post promising more to come was followed by a half month of silence, choked by the great furious monster called Work. Between work and my second life on World of Warcraft, I sometimes find there's little time for much else. I do enjoy my time playing with him by my side in both the virtual and real world, but the daily raids (Wow speak for a team of players getting together to kill monsters) and work that I bring home have started to consume the precious nights.

The stress from the extra responsibility at work has started to build up as well. Almost everyday, I would wake up to a horrified dread to get to work, knowing that my overseas education has caged me for another 2.5 years to go. Not that I regret doing the tradeoff -- after all I met my life mate there. It's surreal to think that the whole stream of events in my life brings me to where I am today. If I had not met him, would I have found another person to love and cherish?

I find myself yearning to be free of this bondage though I can only look enviously at those who've moved on to better places. I've been thinking about what I would really like to do but truth be told, I don't know. I want to find something I enjoy doing and pour my heart into it. But I just can't seem to find out what I really want to do. At this point, even being a stay-at-home-mum sounds pretty appealing.

BloWriMo

A few years back, I chanced upon NaNoWriMo (National Novel Writing Month) and I thought -- “Cool, that would be a nice way to get me back on the writing track”. Writing had come so easily in my late teens. I was so hungry to write and did leave quite a legacy of letters and diary entries during that period. Perhaps it’s a reflection of the flurried pace of my then growing ideology.

As university life started, love became the center of attention. Having never had to share a life with someone else, it was a brand new experience. Regretfully, I did not manage to chart the progress in words. Though in retrospect, we shared similar worldviews and there were few philosophical kinks to smooth through. All I could have written about would be silly quibbles, our little adventures in wintry Ithaca and a sense of wonder at how much happiness and contentment a relationship can offer. And as I suddenly remembered, we were sharing the use of one PC for the first year where all the excitement was and the whole idea of twosome living had somewhat precluded me from these private musings.

I’ve been wanting to take part in NaNoWriMo. I’ve managed to put it off with various excuses: -- settling in with work life (and no PC at that time either), no story ideas, etc…
A few years back, there was a Booker award nominee who was a truck driver who wrote during the odd off-time he had at work. (Don’t think he win that one…. Can’t remember if that was the year with Arundhati Roy or the one after) That was quite inspirational for me – though not inspirational enough to remember his name apparently.

So as this is the first day of November, I’ve decided to start small with my own BloWriMo (Blog Writing Month). I figured if there’s nothing fictional that I can think to write about, I might as start with my own life. So lookout for more postings in this space. __________________________________________________________

Wedding Preparations (or the lackthereof) + WoW Politics

So I finally finally gotten down to a bridal boutique and gotten the package. Granted, it was the first shop that we entered but the price was reasonable and there was a gown I tried that I really liked. Or I remember liking. I guess as wedding gowns go it's pretty normal: bustier style, A-line skirting, longish train, ivory. It does have an irresistable sash in the middle and a not so irresistable bow running down the ass... >.< The bow looks like a veritable mickey mouse....it was just freaking huge! Good thing is that can be removed or reduced though I don't know how that will change the effect.

And after a while, I'm starting to wonder if it the gown really looked as good as I thought. Like maybe I just willed it to look good. But at least for that evening, I felt like I was a pretty bride. Next time, when I go down for my actual gown selection, I'll bring a camera and come back with pics :)

The big day is set to be end of November. I'm only having a customary (chinese) wedding followed by wedding lunch at a restaurant (?).... this part really isn't sorted out yet. It might just turn out to be a small family affair. I personally won't want a really formal dinner/reception for friends. Maybe I'll have a more informal buffet thing for colleagues and friends... I'll have to think about that.
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As for my virtual world in World of Warcraft, we've recently left my old guild to join another. The old guild master (GM) had a horrible attitude.... I felt like it was like work except worse... suck up or you won't get preference in raids (WoW speak for groups bigger than 5 and is the primary mechanism to get better equipment) or gear. So even though I liked many of the people in the guild, I left :/

I still feel bad about it because I'm quite fond of them and it felt like I've betrayed them in some manner. On the other hand, the GM was really getting on my nerves with the preferential treatment and dictatorial style. *sigh* never thought I'd get emotional over a game.

Well, I'll just have to hope for the best in the new guild. They are not Singaporeans and they speak predominantly in "ching chong cheena". We'll see how it goes...
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P.S: And I forgot to mention, we've recently crossed the 5 year mark :) Spent that evening picnicing by ECP. For all his lack of culinary skills, he makes some mean salmon + cream cheese sandwiches. Extra salmon pls!

2 month's of silence

2 month's of silence.

Filled, just getting by.

Work is a big let down. And I'm stuck here for what it's a worth.

Gaming life goes on. But sometimes I don't care.

Getting registered for our marriage. Final ceremony will be simple. Prob in October. I don't really care. In my mind, we were already wed a long time back.

In about 3 months, we celebrate our 5th anniversary.

It feels tired. Sometimes it feels like we only have each other.
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