This morning, after a wasted trip to get my pass done, I was in a surprising state of zen -- letting events flow pass me as inevitable consequences, focusing only on the flows that I can influence. Okay, in no nonsense non-zen words, I simply accepted that some negligence including my own brought about this situation and that getting angry/ upset does not remedy it in any way. I just have to focus on the here and now and what I can do next to change the situation.
People say that married people get more alike and it's true. I learn this from my carefree husband and I must say I quite like the change. Hopefully it's here to stay :)
That said though I was very sad that I didn't meet e* when she came by last week. I was too busy feeling sorry for myself to be vigilant about when she was coming. And being the klutz that I was, I missed her phone call, didn't check my gmail till it's too late...etc. Basically everything that was wrong. It's rare enough that I get to see her. We don't talk enough. Partly I'm to blame. I've turned all anti-social.
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hey darling, don't blame yourself.. but i have to say.. you don't check your phone very often do you? which is the main reason why we missed each other.
been jetlagged and busy since i got back so no time to leave msg here before (didn't want to do so at work)
anyway, so now it is definitely your turn to visit me in London! :)
the next time i'm going back in s'pore is Dec next year i think.
errm yeah. phone = silent mode in my bag >_< my mum has to call johnny's line to get me (even when I knows -if I actually think about it -- that she calls at a particular time every week. Yes, I'm horrible, I know :/
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