Tuesday, June 12, 2007

Esteemed

I have low self-esteem. I've known it for years but it doesn't stop this chronic termite from gnawing at me. I have clarity in what I want to be but without the steel cocoon of confidence, I'm easily shaken. The contrary objections gets bolder in their attacks until it shatters what belief you have.

I have begun to heal with my darling by my side. Together we build from the abandoned remnants of my self-worth. It is a fragile, nascent structure, vulnerable to attacked. Even as it crumbles again and again, we start anew, undaunted, to build sand castles on the turbulent shores of my existence.
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4 comments:

e* said...

darling, so glad you're back to writing. have missed you! forgot your birthday on the day (so sorry.. you know how scatter-brainedly absent-minded i am!)... anyway... happy SUPER belated 26th!!!!

and very happy that you're still honeymooney with Johnny. you give me hope.

will be back in malaysia and singapore second half of july. and will speak soon.

xoxo

meeloop said...

oh gosh! you're gonna be back?!?
Don't tell you came back for the shopping season! :)

I was actually thinking of going home in July to shop. *whistle* and of course to see my family. errm errm i'm pretty scatter-brained myself.... sorry i never really did remember your b'day correctly....i do remember the month *beams*

e* said...

erm... NO... i'm not back for the shopping season... too superficial for me... *sniffs*

but Now that you mention it.... hmm....;P

yeah, am flying back to Malaysia arriving around 15 July or so, flying back to london on 29.

was thinking of spending the weekend of 21-22 in Singapore since that's when most working adults will be free. but if you're back in malaysia, it'll be even better! easier to meet up with you and still keep parents happy... and we can go shopping together even! and also meet up with KL.. Wheeee...!!!!

anyway, lemme know where you'll be and i'll calibrate the length of my singapore trip accordingly...
xoxo

meeloop said...

I'll email you :) No need to publish our frivolity here :P